The Last Day of The Short Month--Thank you, God

For a short month, it has seemed so long. I am in a spiritual upheaval. I would have NEVER in my life thought that I would EVER be considering Islam as my religion of choice. My stomach is full of butterflies. What will my family think? They already think I'm a bit nuts. Christianity to Islam? Come on! But I am a seeker and always have been. Was Jesus God? How could that be? Yes, he was a special prophet. He was certainly a messenger sent by God. He was even so close to God that God would call him his son. But God calls us his children, too. But being God's son does not make him God. The more I read the New Testament and Paul's letters, the more I feel that Paul hijacked Christianity and made it something he wanted it to be, not what Jesus preached. And therefore, Muhammad was right. Christianity got off track. Oh dear God, do I have the strength to do what I believe I should do? I have prayed and prayed. Please hear me and help me.