This morning I wrote in my blog about a time when I was "on fire." I wrote about the now infamous dog bit incident and realized that I still have a lot of unresolved anger about that. I still have unresolved anger about the snub on Christmas. I don't know if my relationship is any better with Sabrina now than it was months ago. She did loan me her car while my car was being repaired for 3 weeks which was very generous of her. But I feel such a distance from her and I don't want it to be this way, She's not keen on seeing John because he got off track the last time. Now I need to talk to John and tell him she's pissed off about the last time we were there. She's so pissed off that she doesn't want to go back. I feel like our relationship is slipping away. She thinks I'll be around forever but time is slipping by to fix our relationship. I have prayed so much about this that I am just about all prayed out. I don't know what to do. I know I have to talk to John about her anger at him. Is she angry at me too? I don't know because we just text but it seems from her texts that she's angry about something. I want so badly to have a good relationship with my daughter. I try not to push my religion on her, but she can't help but see me within my religion by mt dress. All I know is that she is very angry about something and I am clueless. I think she feels that we have not made much progress with John. Maybe we need a different therapist for our joint sessions. I don't know. I just know I want to have a good relationship with her and I don't right now and it breaks my heart. Allah, help me.
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I hope everything goes fine....only time can cure this....i will pray for you to have your way out of it as soon as possible....from your post its clear that she loves you no matter what is going on rite now...i hope prayer, reciting Quran as well as listening to it can give you some relief....
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